Eva and Family,

I mailed a card the other day - I hope it reached you. I hope you and your family enjoy taking the time to read it and continue to live and love.

You are amazing and beautiful, and I'm so glad you have opened yourself up to the world. You have touched me and reaffirmed how important living every moment and donating your life and love and body are, throughout and at the end of life.

I am so happy that you have the opportunity to come to terms with everything. More than your friends and family will cherish your memory. You have made yourself immortal in spirit, and left a beautiful print on the world.

I only hope that we will all remember to hold that beauty close for the rest of our lives.

Thank you, Eva and family,

You're all in my heart,

Dayl, Seattle, WA

You are more brave, more beautiful, more LOVING than anyone I know, Eva. We lovelovelovelove you right back. Thank you for including us in your love and life. You have made us ALL better without a doubt. Lovelovelove to you and your loving family. I am thinking of you all.

I am a very close friend of Kina's... I watch your blogs and your videos... If I could I'd give you one of my lungs... I wish I could see you face to face and help in some way...

I wanted to do a walk for CF with the military sponsoring. I'm a Soldier for the 81st Brigade in Washington State just back from a deployment from Iraq. I wish I could have known you more... I cry wishing there was something I could do.

Please... smile. Love as much as you can... and never forget that love you have around you...

You are in my prayers.

I love you.
I love you.
I love you I love you I love you.
I may not have ever met you or spoken to you...but you are one of the most beautiful people I have ever known. No matter what happens in the next few days...you'll still be here. We have your words and we will always...ALWAYS...have your love, you beautiful huge-hearted woman. And you have my love. Bucketloads of it. Feel it? Right now. It's there with you.
We will keep fighting this monster. A CURE WILL BE FOUND. I truly believe that someday, no one else will have to go through what you have gone through.
Hold on if you can...but if it's too much...find your peace. You are an inspiration and a guiding light. And your words...YOUR WORDS WILL LIVE FOREVER. Forever, Eva.

I've been reading your journal for years now. I think about you often during my day, especially these last few months. I tried to mail you a card, but I could never manage to get the postage right, but I'll try again. It has my St. Michael medal in it, and I want you to have it.


I love you.

Hi Eva and family,

You are the only individual with CF close to my age i've ever met face to face (besides myself... if one can meet oneself...). I had heard about you online, and was aware of your blog prior to GearUp, had seen your fundraising video for your Dad, and followed your transplant story.

I was so nervous before meeting you, and I think I told you something along those lines when we met at the pre-ride dinner before day 1 of the ride. I also think I said I didn't think I could have gone through what you had gone through up to that point, and was amazed by you. I am still amazed by you.

The grace you have shown over the last few years has been incredible to witness. You have replaced my fears of the end stages of CF with incredible hope. Hope for peace, hope for love, and the hope that if necessary, I could show the same openness and grace to make the most of what I have been given that you have shown the world.

Thank You Eva, thank you for sharing. I am thinking of you.

Love,
Chris Kvam

I don't think I've ever commented on your journal before.. maybe once..

You're an amazing, incredible, so strong of a woman. You're really inspiring and I'm happy to have had the privilege to have followed you here, even for so short a time.

I'm a friend of Kina, so seeing this video and hearing about all this really hits me in a few different ways.

You are loved.
You are so loved.
Always and forever.

Heather, Seattle, WA


"As long as one person thinks of you, you will live forever."

And you, my dear, will certainly live forever.

I love you too, Eva.

Dear Eva,
I am so sad that time has not been on your side. There were so many of us sending prayers for you, but please know that you have made such an impact on those of us who will never meet you. Thank you for sharing yourself with all of us. I know that you started your life journal as a way to connect with others with CF but you have touched so many.. There are so many people around the world who know you and know your message of love, kindness, friendship, courage, inspiration and the importance of organ donation. You have truly lived your life to the fullest, and I know just looking at your photos and your past posts on your blog that not a minute was ever wasted. I smile when I think of your Christmas caroling and wish I had had the chance to share with you the video of my 5 month old daughter Abby singing along. I know we have never met, but I find myself referring to you as my friend Eva... I will always feel that you are my friend.. Rest now my friend. It has been a long journey and a huge battle and you have truly been a warrior. Know that you are surrounded by the love of not only your family and friends who are with you, but all of us out here who are thinking of you tonight. We love you Eva and will never forget you. Your life although short will be a life long remembered...

love and hugs to you and your family,

xoxoxoxo
Robyn and Abby

p.s If any of you blog friends are reading this, as a tribute to Eva, please sign your organ donor card..

Eva.. your dad is right.. the story doesnt end.. we will keep fighting for a cure..

You are an amazing person, Eva, stronger and more beautiful than I could ever hope to be. You have truly touched my life since I started reading this blog last fall, and I have been praying for you and your wonderful family. You have made me see just how precious every moment, every tiny thing in life is, and how not to take any of it for granted. You have helped me become a better person with a better perspective on life.

I will be registering as an organ donor. I had registered as such on my learner's permit years ago, which has since expired, so I want to be sure I'm registered again.

You will live on, we will make sure of that. Even my grandchildren will know about you. I hope this doesn't sound weird or creepy, but for a while now I'd been considering giving my future daughter your name.

Thank you... for being one of the most beautiful and amazing human beings in this world.

Most of us have never met you, but we love you dearly. Sending my love to you and your family as always.

Yours,
Mary A.

We love you too. Thank you so much for everything you have done and for being you.

Love,

K & J

My heart is just breaking, and the tears are flowing. I feel like I am losing a great friend that I have known for years.

I'm so sorry if we were never enough, if we never inspired you, or pushed you, or motivated you to fight more. I feel like I have failed you somehow.

I love you more than you will ever know. You have touched me, and inspired, and motivated me, and I promise I will do what I can to keep your message alive. I've already gotten my Fiance to sign an organ donor card and I promise I will educate as many people as I can about this.

Thank you for everything. Words can not even explain how you have touched so many of us.

I will never ever forget you.

Edited at 2010-02-12 05:58 am (UTC)

Hi my name is Kaelyn. Im a friend of Rachels through Delta Gamma and started following your blog a while back and always just felt weird saying anything, but like everyone I feel a very strong connection to you. And wanted you to know I was here thinking of you.

By only seeing the first screenshot from this video, I already knew what this was about and I dreaded confirming my worst fears. I only knew you because of Meg. She's always said the most wonderful things about you and I'm very sad for the fact that I will never get a chance to meet such a beautiful person that Meg spoke often of. You're forever in my heart and never far from thought. I hope your last days continue with love and memories. I promise you, Eva, you left an impact on my heart and in my life, and I know for a fact that I can speak for others when I say you've left so much in this world. It'll be impossible to forget you. I wouldn't even dream of trying. May you find peace as your time ends. I love you for everything you are. You are inspiring, beautiful, and one hell of a human being. I know your parents are ridiculously proud and grateful to have you in their lives. My love to you, your family and friends. I'll try not to cry in mourning, but celebrate your life by honoring you and a promise to get your documentary out and for the world to one day not have to mourn another young life lost to CF.

Dear Eva,

I love you more than words can say,
you’re the red rose blooming on a winters day

Through the paleness of the snow,
your vibrant colour emits a glow

As the storm comes to 8A,
I fall down to my knees, look up, and say:

“I love you Eva!” really loud,
as 65 seedling from you fall to the ground

In the spring they will start to bloom,
and pollinate all because of you.

You are the Beauty in the world
And you always will be.

I wrote a long and deep comment that somehow got eaten up in cyberspace.
It made me realize I needed to keep it simple.

You are loved Eva. By so many people who have never met you.
You have given that love to us in return. We are the lucky ones to know you. To know all your stories, including your pain. You have been brave and you have been scared.

But most of all you have been loved.
You always will be. Always.
I am sending you and your family my love and a hope for peace in the days ahead. My heart is heavy but it is also full.
Thank you for that.
Love, Debbie A.

LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE
right back at you! You are so amazing! Thank you for being so open and honest all the time. I have learned so much from you over the past few months even though we haven't ever met. To love. Family, friends, love.
I am sending you tons of love and gratitude from the Yukon.
Olivia

I can feel something like a halo around your face that you are so very very tired. I love you Eva, and I would be telling the worlds biggest lie if I said that I my heart isn't breaking to be a part of this. What courage! What bravery! What strength! Never have I seen such strength as yours. I can never thank you enough for welcoming me to be a part of such a rich life such as yours. Your family if the epitome of love and tenderness, and you, Eva, are the picture of grace, love and beauty.
Be fearless my friend; you are alive forever.
Agathe

Eva,

All the love you put out there into the world is coming back to you now, full force.

And the light you've created will continue to swirl around, creating magic and laughter and compassion and hope.

Thank you for being honest and brave and for sharing your story and your life with so many.

May you know deep, deep peace.

With love,

Jenny

I smile with you.

I cry with you.

I dance with you.

I dream with you.

I breathe with you.

I will name my daughter Eva, because of how you've changed my world. You are my muse, my inspiration, my strength, my joy.

You have given so very much in this life, and lived life so intensely that no matter when your physical body dies, you live on and on and on and on.

My sister.

I know that this will be so hard on your family. It will be hard for those of us who love you the world over.

But you've fought harder than anyone I know and none of us would ever, ever deny you the rest and peace you deserve just for the sake of having the joy you bring us every day.

I will always love you so very, very, very much.

Go home, my darling sister. Go home.

Forever, and ever, and ever,
Chris

Eva,
You are the most amazing person I have ever met. Without you, I would have ended my battle long ago. You are the reason I am here today, you are the reason I never took my own life. You are the reason I will always continue to fight. Because of you, I have learned to live. I've learned how to have adventures, how to be open to life. No matter what, you will always be in my life. Every chance I take, and every adventure I have, I am able to enjoy because of you. You have saved my life. You have changed my life forever. My hair will soon be red, so I will never be able to hide in the shadows. I'm going to live. For us, for you, for all the fighters. I love you, I always will. I will always think of you as being the best friend I ever had. You have been the person I could bare my soul to. Your spirit will always be alive, your light will always shine.
I love you, thank you for giving me my life.
Always,
Amanda

I LOVE YOU.

WE ALL LOVE YOU.

If I can ever experience a fraction of the love you have in my lifetime, I will consider myself lucky. You are amazing, and you have taught us all so much about living life to the fullest and loving life to the fullest.

Thank you, Eva.

Krystal in Minneapolis

Ewa and family,
I send my love to all of you. You are all amazing spirits and I am so happy I got a chance to know Ewa these past few months.
Ewa, when you make it to heaven make sure that you dance and sing and run and have the most amazing time every single moment up there. I am not sad because I know that you will be in heaven having a ball and I hope that your family and friends can remember that in their saddest moments that you will be forever and that you will always be with them. Enjoy your last days with your friends and family, give and receive many hugs and kisses and just remember that you can all continue to talk even after you're gone, even if the answers aren't so loud as they were in the past.

I am happy for you to go to heaven. You WILL be missed immensely even by us here on LJ, but we will celebrate the fact that we know you're up there dancing to your heart's content.

Much love

~Skye

Eva...
I can't find the words. All i can say is that i love you in my own little way. I hate that I've been so far away and haven't been on your side of the country more to try an pay cab drivers with cheeseburgers with you. :)
You are such an amazing person, with an amazing soul and I cherish everyday our amazing summer together.
This all feel like empty words compared to what I feel right now, but it's better then nothing right? I'm so glad we got to hang out for hot docs and that we partied like the Core members we are. Big hugs to you and the amazing Markvoort Clan..

Mélissa Carle-Palu aka Little hard core